Need Some Fresh Air

I see everybody amongs me is changing. Improving. Some are furthering their studies with Master or PHD, some locals and some abroad. Some has started doing online biz. Some are baking cakes and cupcakes and taking orders. Some even going oversea maybe following their husband or just going for holidays and having fun. Even my working friend turning housewife (for the time being) is doing great cooking special dishes and sewing something interesting and spending so much time with her kid.



Me? I'm not moving anywhere from the last 6yrs. pathetic. Nothing change, no new knowledge, no nothing. such a loser. Yang bertambah hanyalah retak2 di tumit, rambut yg makin byk gugur, lemak makin bertambah di seluruh badan, jerawat di sana sini, dan suara yg makin nyaring kerana hari2 berlatih 'menyanyi' dgn anak2 yg sgt baik2 perangai nye.

ntahlah. sedih jugak fikir2kan. camne nk improve myself. kt mana nk start. and i dont even know how to do it. or what to do. I think I was somewhat  'hiding' behind this title of "fulltime housewife who is too busy with 3 kids". ya like the others dont have kids. pfftt. Ya Allah tunjukkan lah jalan yg terbaik untuk ku ya Allah......

Mari Mengaji!

Finally early this month I've sent Balqis for her mengaji lesson. Dah lama fikir2 nak menghantar dia belajar mengaji, before this I thot maybe I can teach her myself but failed miserably, no thanks to her sister  Auni & brother Zakwan. Apa tidaknye setiap kali bukak muqaddam tu mereka yg lagi excited nk baca sama2 tp of coz la lebih kpd nk mengacau drpd nk belajar sama.sudahnye terjerit2 berebut2 kitab sampai terkoyak 2-3 helai. So I gave up. Lebih baik hantar ke sekolah mengaji di mana pengajiannye lebih teratur & formal, yg lebih penting tiada adik2 yg bleh kacau dia hahaha.
So now I have new routine..5.40pm every weekdays jln kaki hantar balqis ke tpt mengaji nye...ye sgt dkt iaitu di dpn jln masuk taman kami ni je heheheh yuran pun sgt murah, rm30 nk compare dgn ilmu yg diajarnya. Alhamdulillah so far dia boleh follow sbb x byk beza dgn buku Iqra' yg dia tgh belajar kt tadika dia.
So You guys mesti tertanya2 apa beza Iqra' dhn Qiraati ni? haa...teman tanya jgk kt ustazah tu.katanye Iqra' ni cara pembelajaran dulu2 bila guna Quran mashaf Uthmani..skrg guna mashaf lain (aii lupa plak namanye) maka dicipta kaedah baru ini i.e Qiraati. dan lebih penting lg, lepas habis qatam Qiraati ni, maknanye dh bleh naik Quran (while Iqra' x bleh naik Quran). ic...harap2 Balqis dpt mengaji dgn baik...insya Allah...

Senyum senyum 1st time otw nk gi sklh ngaji
auni pun ikut sama

tgh tunggu pendaftaran

huwaaargghhh leganye dah habis kelas! hihihi (buruk nau anak dara ni posing)

Aidilfitri 2011


Ok sebelum terlupa..meskipun dah masuk Zulkaedah dah la ni tp ni nk tepek jugak gmbr hari raya kami...hehe....

Our lil' family
 
My Big Family-everyone is in the pic except my sister whose celebrating her Aidilfitri at her P-I-L's house

It's About Time To Let Go...

Lately, bf Zakwan isn't so much fun. He's so much bigger & taller & heavier, dah xtau nk adjust dia mcm mana kalau bf atas pangku. siap bebantal segala bagai nk alas sbb tgn ni dh x tertampung badan & leher dia. naik muscle kt tengkuk & bahu & lengan huhu sgt la sakitnye. nak urut pun xberbaloi sbb ia akan berulang2 lagi. so i resorted to bf him lying on my side. same thing, pinggang & leher sakit juga. sbb semalaman selalunya hampir 5x dia akan bangun nk menyusu.ataupun kdg2 mata x buka tp nanges sambil mulut ckp nak nenennn...nak nenenn...bygkan sampai pagi sleeping in such an awkward position, mana lah x sakit2 badan. Umur dia sekarang dah setahun 11 bulan...insya Allah by next month genaplah 2 tahun. and i plan to stop bf him by that time...oh...so sad & kinda worried too coz he refused to drink fm. Dah mcm2 botol, cawan,botol berstraw,semuanya dh try. susu pun dh 3-4 jenis try semua dia takmau. camne ntah nk buat. His appetite is another thing. Susah sgt nk bagi mkn. Kalau mee @ mihun @ spagetti suka le dia. Takkan hari2 nk mkn spagetti nak oii. Pengsan mama.
Semoga semuanya akan berubah nanti...insya Allah....